Relapse Case

The trichotillomania which I got rid some 4-5 months back is coming back somehow. The root cause is something which I still wondering helplessly. It's frustrating, take a lot more efforts and hell lot of "will" which I'm lacking.

This time also I had done almost clean shaved of my head like the last time. I hope this is perhaps the last time which I'm taking such a drastic measure of cure / get rid of this habit.

Shamu Makhong : A Manipuri Poem

Shamu Makhong

ema keithel do kaihoure
maroi manam na chaihoure
miyam gi khonga netkhaibada
anouba hingol maroi sing do
pathoure.....

Masidasu natte
kanagi nga makhal suna chaihoure
ema singdo pot hundoklamlaga
masa masa hingnaba chennakhre

Ho! Bazaar do kaihoure..
Mi kappam bagira? Natte
Combing operation la? Natte
adudi karino...

Shamu makhong gi shamu do ngaohoure!
Madi karigi ngaoriba asuk kuiba matamdi ngaodraga
Ngaoba oirammoi...

ei amukta warisage ngaigkho:
hey Shamu, karigino nangna tafing tafing chelliba
kanada kari warouba leire..
ema singse hingnanaba keithel famjabani
nangna loina thugaire keithel se, kari pende nang?

Hey, lamdam sigi mitangba Praja
eise kuire lengdana leirakpa
yenge yenglakpani, eibu thawoide nakhoina
enaton se kenba yaba kenkhre
emeisisu hanna yengbide nakhoina

matam amadadi
eibu yengba arappada gi mi kaya ama lak ammi
ngasidi nakhoigi chaokhatpagi mitou tamba heinabiduna
eigi ethak ta thong sajille,,,(flyover kouwee hai Maharja na)
eibu udre...
eina touriba haibabu ngaiba
eina asum asum tumsillakpa ngairi
adubu nakhoigi taibangsu tumsillakle,,
takutchei nakhoigi sajat..
Sa ga khetnaba leite.
eidi nungtigi ui;
lapna lakchaba pot yonbi singbu
Imphal machana pot yolhande
nakhoi sibu mira,
murti oina faoba eidi nakhoise pamjade

Maharaj Bheigyachandra dasu haijarure wakatlure eina
Adubu madi apangbani.
mana khalli;
madudi thong asida mahak
Kangla manungda
nongmadi changkhini
ngasi mahakti ngairi.
kayada pangliba!
ningthou yamle ngasidi
mahak ti khangjade
mahak ti supnadagi murti ni murti


The above poem is written by my friend Ronid alias Akhu. The english script is used to write this poem so my non-Manipuri friend will find it difficult to understand even if they can read. A salute to him for such a moving poem.

The poem is about the neglected one time famous landmark status in Manipur known as "Shamu Makhong" which is now deteriorating due to neglect. There is hell lot of history behind this statue which I'll post sometimes later.

A Phobia : Static-Phobia

I don’t whether such kind of phobia exist officially or not. Whatever is the case, I think I’m suffering from “static-phobia”. It is nothing to do with being static but, it has to do with static electricity which is developed in our body like that when we wear woolen cloths in winter season.

I develop such kind of static electricity more than any of my friends / colleagues. Many times, I find that there is small spark when I touched someone / something. The Air-Conditioned atmosphere in the office has worsened my condition. At times, it hurts me physically and sometimes, it also hurst that someone whom I touched depending on the intensity of the spark generated. Now, it slowly hurting mentally also by creating a fear or second thought.I tried to figure out why this happening but, hit a dead end without much answer.

The frequency is increasing everyday. From once / twice, it has risened to four / five. This thing has created a fear in my mind which makes thing twice before I touch anyone / anything even before hand-shake.

Worse part is that some of the rooms in my office is biometric control which requires your finger-print to access. So, thought of entering such rooms brings jittery in my mind everyday. Perhaps, fear or maybe phobia.

I don’t know how I’m going to get over this. But, I want to get over this before it turns into permanent phobia.

Pedestrian Pathway : Keep Right !

Perhaps, you know this. While walking you need to keep right (yes, right not the left) to see the traffic coming. Many of us always keep left while walking also because we were taught so since early age. But, it is wrong actually. Keep left is for the motorist only. For the pedestrian, we need to keep right so that you see the traffic and avoid accidents.

You must have realized by this time how uncomfortable it is to walk in left in a busy road. There is always a scare of hitting from back. The kind of sound is annoying when you don't know what is happening behind you.

Inspite of being uncomfortable, we still keep left because we are ignorant as well as mis-guided. No wonder in many of hit-and-run cases you will always find that the victim is always hit from behind.

Keep right while walking to avoid being hit from behind.

PS : Few days back I had an argument with my wife on this. I said "Right" and she said "Left".

Do a google search for : pedestrian to walk in right side of the road. (perhaps, you'll find the answer)

Catching up !

Many of my blog readers (though very small in number) must be wandering where I have gone. Because it’s been quite sometime, a little over 2 months, I have been out of touch with the blogging and blogging world.

I’m still existing. Over the last 2 months I was on marriage cum vacation trip to my hometown. I was in home for almost a month. Came back to Mumbai, then shifting my PC took a long time as my ex-roomies wanted to use my PC for sometime more before his PC was delviered. My PC was rather in bad shape due to many users and no upgrade since it was bought. Upgrading it took me few weekends. Now, my desktop have been upgraded. But, no internet connection till then.

In meantime, my office has drafted a new IT policy which blocked all the personal site including blogs. So, blogging / reading blogs is not possible. So, it took bit long to start writing, reading blogs.

Now, I have taken internet connection in home. So, blogging won’t be a problem anymore.

I have also change the way my block could be accessed. Previously, it was open to anyone. Now, I have change to those only whom I invited to read my blog.