Happy, aren't I ?

Yesterday I went and met one of my brother-in-law's friend. His reaction on seeing me is that I have put lot of weights since we met last some 12 months ago. I replied "I'm happy that's why."

At this time last year, my weight was 56 kg and in less than a year now my weight is 68-70kg. I have gain from than 10 kg in a short span of 12 months. I think this is because I'm happy and free from many of personal and mental tensions compare to last year as I'm able to eat only when I happy or when there is nothing in my mind which is very difficult when I'm emotionally hurt.

Many of friends and cousins who are meeting me after a long gap are complimenting me. They said I'm looking much better now from before. They said they could hear the content when I laugh / speak or do something.

My problem with trichotillomania is more or less cure. It takes a lot of will and some innovative ideas to end up this habit. Mama is going to be really happy for this as she is someone who is keeping a track of this since I develop this habit. Thanks to blogger Arunima for her advice and concern.

Add to this, I can concentrate more in my work. I can now work in more organize, tension-free fashion like I'm hungry of something new.

My loneliness is now gone. I can sleep for hours like before like a log. No longer interested in calling someone / friend to kill my solitude. Now, I enjoy more of quite, peaceful and being alone many times.

Most importantly, the sense of guilt and suspicion feeling is now gone forever.

Now, I'm all over again finding myself. Perhaps, this are the all the indicators of being good and happy. Perhaps, the lost spark of life has come back to me again.

I'm happy, aren't I ?