Long, long time ago I was completely heart-broken. So much heart-broken that my trichotillomania had worsen irreparably and anyone could visibly see the fast receding hair density. I spoke to anyone on my phone list just to kill the solitude inside me which was haunting me like hell. The food was bad no matter what it was, loss sleep for many days and still felt really active in the next morning. Kept on watching the phone every minutes hoping for a miss call or sms. Was losing weight on a very fast pace. Her thought brought tears, wanted to go somewhere and suicide was very compelling that time. I looked upon everyone hoping to find a shoulder to cry and help me out from the mess but, at the end of day it was only me and me only.
That time I realized it was myself to fix the mess rather than looking for help or shoulder to cry on. I deleted her number and started erasing memories associated with her slowly. It was painful process. It took a long time and lot of will.
But, finally I move on. Persistence and will power paid at the end.
Learned many lessons from these incidents. Perhaps the most important lesson is the ability to move on what matter it is and there is no free lunch. It has also taught me many more lesson which I think won't be ethical to express here.
The shoulder you are looking to cry is your own only and no one else. You yourself is the solution for everything to your life.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
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3 comments:
all the said songs in the world, has a true story and these true stories happen to real poeple like you and me.
treasure the past for a new beginning, it has all the clues ... on life and future!
@Jayanta,
Very true. Like every failure is stepping stones to success every unhappy moments is also stepping stones to being happy.
When was your heart broken There was a time you called me up so often and chatted away my whole fkin nights...Hmm now i smell you were just passing your time ....:)
Hey man even i plucked my hair badly...so i shaved it recnetly now i am able to controliot seems. but wont last long..i know as it is grower longer...
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